My Exception

My exception

Stay close to me

Know how much you mean to me

Swear this isn't deception

I want to fix

This conviction

You have of me

I hope you see past the ugly

And still love me

Cause you're my only exception

I don't want anyone's attention

But yours

I don't want anyone's affection

But yours

I'm still waiting behind your closed door

Wondering if you're still there

Always trying to see your shadow

I wallow in the thought of your love

I don't know how to forget

The feeling

Of listening

To the sound of your voice

That feeling of never wanting you to stop talking

Unable to hang up the phone

When you say you have to go

Sometimes when I'm alone

I reach out my hand

And imagine you there

To grab it

And interlock our fingers

Just the thought of

Feeling your flesh and bones against mine

Sends goosebumps throughout my body

I can't help but think we're an obscurity

A rarity

To feel this deeply

I hope you want it

Just as badly

Do you ever think about

Connecting

Imagining the electricity

Just from our fingertips touching

Sitting so closely

Feeling the energy of our bodies radiating

Every feeling transmitting

Trying to cling together like a magnet

But we're resisting

Stuck in a trance

Cause our consciousness has fallen into each other's eyes

Fallen so deep in each other's souls

We're afraid if we get any closer

We'll forever lose ourselves

I'm afraid that

For you it was only fleeting

I was just a temporary being

To put your feelings

Did you mean it when you said you loved me?

Did I take for granted your love?

Was I not gentle enough?

I'm so tired of being temporary

I want to exist permanently

Beyond my own being

In someone else's memories

I don't want therapy

I don't want meds to change me

I want to have someone who thinks of me

I want someone to hold me

When I'm not me

Am I really so draining

I try not to be

I'm sorry for all this overwhelming energy

It's not something I'm trying to get you to carry

I'm sorry this is me

I'll disfigure my identity

Just to have you look at me