My Death

** Disclaimer: Some of the poetry in this series may contain references to self-harm and suicide as well as strong language. All work is written by me from 2009-2012, ages 15-18. Some can be found in my book, Memories of a Troubled Teen by Paige Guffey, available on Amazon. **

***These are written before I had an official and accurate diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder and Bipolar 2. These are representative of my life, thoughts, and feelings during this time. ***

Drowning in a pool of pain,

I know nothing will ever be the same.

I can see you leaning against the wall,

I can hear the voices in the hall.

Everything seems so black,

How could I have gone so far-off track?

Trying to remember why I’m here,

Trying to remember what I fear.

There’s something about you,

Something you were going to do.

I see the knife you hold in your hands,

I remember, finally, all your plans.

Tonight’s the night…

That you end my life.