My Dearest Father I have Anxiety
A Poem about the struggles of dealing with anxiety
Below is a poem I wrote about my anxiety and the challenges it brings with it. For example not everyone understands it and that is what I wrote about below. I, like many people, have struggled with anxiety among other mental health issues like depression for years. Although it has been hard on me and I wish I didn’t have these challenges, that doesn’t mean I can’t work on it and learn how to properly handle these issues in my life. So, by submitting this poem below I wish to bring mental health awareness to the community and if anyone out there reading this struggles with anxiety I want you to know that you are not alone and it is nothing to be ashamed about. You are important, and you matter, and you are loved. It is time to end the stigma around mental health. Mental health matters and it nothing to be ashamed about or embarrassed of when we are struggling. It can affect anyone so therefore we must please support and love everyone. I hope you enjoy my work.
My Dearest Father I have Anxiety
My dearest father
I have anxiety
Some days you ask me to explain it to you
Other days you don’t care
I try to explain it to you but my mind tells me you can’t understand and your face tells me you won’t
I have anxiety
You say that you get stressed out and can’t deal with work
But I tell you I get anxious and I can’t be around people
How can I make you understand they are two different things?
You tell me this is all just apart of being an adult
But I tell you this is all about me learning how to be comfortable in my own skin
I have anxiety
You take me with you to meet your friends out for drinks
You’re getting excited and I’m getting nervous
I can feel my heart pounding in my chest
I can hear my blood roaring in my ears as it rushes around in my head
While my thoughts begin to race and dive into chaos as they all come at once in my mind and twist together
“What if they don’t like me?”
I think
“What if I do or say something stupid and they judge me?”
I ask myself
I have anxiety
We get there and the restaurant is chaotic
You’re fine with standing trapped in a corner waiting for a table
But I am not
I feel like I’m suffocating
I have anxiety
The lights are bright
There’s too many people
Different noises are coming from all over and it’s so loud I have to yell to you so you can hear me when I tell you I want to go home
But you don’t understand why
Instead you look at me confused and unbothered by the insanity as you say, “But we just got here.”
I have anxiety
You tell me I have to grow up
While I’m telling myself that I’m okay even though I’m not
Why can’t you understand I am not like you?
You leave me alone in a room full of people to talk to your friends
I am left alone by the food with my shoulders up to my ears my back rigid and my hands shaking
I have anxiety
On a daily basis I have to keep my hands from trembling
My heart from pounding
My thoughts from racing
My dearest father please try to understand and accept that I am like this and please try to help me instead of yell at me because my dearest father I have anxiety
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About the Creator
Olivia Dell
Hello everyone! My name is Olivia but everyone calls me Bonez. I'm currently 24 years old and I live in Oklahoma but originally from Los Angeles. Writing is one of my biggest passions and I hope you enjoy my work!
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