They’re strange
Feelings
You don’t quite know they’re there until
Your heart jumps a little when you think of them
You smile a little wider when they creep into your thoughts
So much to say
So many questions to ask
I’ve never been speechless
But the way his eyes glimmer when he smiles
I didn’t realize how beautiful his eyes were until
I found myself lost in them for just a little too long
And before I knew it my train of thought was derailed
They’re sneaky
Feelings
You don’t quite realize you’re screwed until
Your soul feels at peace
Dare I say, warm
With his hand on your skin
The fire of negativity having finally gone quiet
Feelings often coincide with curiosities
What’s his favorite thing?
A gold ring with a story behind it
What's his favorite color?
He doesn’t have one, but he certainly doesn’t like the color red
What’s he afraid of?
No fears, but an uncomfortability with deep
Dark open water
Feelings often coincide with doubts
When will the other shoe drop?
The question I’ve been asking myself since this began
What is ‘this’?
Labeling it would make it real
Do I want a label?
Yes..
But no..
Adding a label in turn adds power
Adding power in turn adds feelings
But aren’t I already there?
I reminded myself for days
Weeks
Don’t get attached
You don’t know where his heads at
Don’t get attached
You don’t know how he feels
But
He’s the first thought in every morning
Which is saying a lot because it used to be coffee
He’s the last thought of every evening
Which is saying a lot because it used to be coffee
Did I intend to write about him?
No
Putting the pen to paper
This was supposed to be about something else entirely
Should I have waited to write about him?
Probably
It hasn’t been that long
Maybe a couple months
Only a couple dates
Dates that I have replayed in my mind
Wishing I had gone about differently
With more
Finesse
They’re an odd thing
A scary thing
But a wondrous thing
A warm thing
Feelings
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