1.
will you remember me when I'm gone
I remember early summer mornings
glad-wrapped air and chiffon sunrise
conversation catharsis exploration denial
then drowsiness betrayed us
and exhaustion robbed us
I remember the bus
girls giggling at the boy
with ice-cream dripping
over his knuckles
a line down his jaw
sticky grip
vanilla in his pores
I remember one perfect day
in the perfect park
you know the one
where the old men play cards
faces like pastry dough
crumpled kneaded baked
I remember a time
there was a time I say
there were times you'll say
hours, half-hours
between-times
I remember your skin
the air about you so
still, like a leopard pausing
claws like rose thorns
clutching at your hair
I remember the last day
hanging like a necklace
of crisp leaves and ant-bones
a carapace of memory
with grasshoppers underfoot
I remember it slinking away
thick as the winter-soup
when we were pushed together
then parting
magic-lantern faces
2.
standing there
your face accelerating
beneath mockingbird hair
swimming sweeten-condensed
milk of skin
smile fish-flickering
beneath the surface
distorted enough
to think you're pretty
rub your eyes
wonder if there was
anything at all
yes
arrogance defiance ridicule
sitting confused confined conned
in white cotton white crepe white calico
springtime and Sadie Hawkins Day
stripes strips and streams
stifled cries hands clasped
fists clenched
for your sake he must come
for mine he must come
must come must comfort
he shall bring glad tidings
because love always arrives on time
that is Mussolini's gift
of course he'll come Cassandra
but my loneliness lies
in his arrival
we are separate
I'm waiting for another
like trains they come and go
peering from windows into the night
watching their backs
pass through doors
and then
bent hard and grappling
hunched and keeled over
keel-hauled shoulders
upon this brow-crest of waves
this white-wash hair
gushing past
the sweetest tongue
onto the icy sides
bulleting and burning
choking and churning
its way
your stomach gripped
not in love
outlined on the tiles
you're useless
heart in overdrive
transfixed and retching
in the morning your period
still wanting still needing
still
where are your earrings
I was
yet to live for your fountainhead
yet to be razed by your imperial mind
yet to venture forth into your body
yet to delight in your heart
yet to be freed by your courage
3.
what are you thinking
nothing
about me
someone else
who
someone I loved
that's strange
why
so was I
do you ever think of me
sometimes
only sometimes
were you thinking about anything
not really
why don't you come then
4.
be careful not to watch
yourself
settle down to
a nightcapful of equilibrium
and lithium
and illumination
and transfiguration
under the marquee moon
when the wires sung
under Tom’s fingers
standing at the mirror
silhouette Gillette in hand
in your white cotton
or was it calico
gown
maybe it was silk
then carefully cut the skin
not near the veins
or the arteries
pumping in my heart
watch the milk trickle
from your breast
down the elbow
or is it blood now
wipe off the saliva
with a tissue
or is it saliva now
dripping oily consumptive
sinewy and stabbing
over my body screaming
screaming under the weight
monkey-weight
or is it semen sow
watch my semen dry
crackle into dust
there were moments
cast in molten flesh
poured from pillow to pillow
with booze and contraception
from bed and mouth
tossed like marbles
bewitching bemoaning
bothered and bewildered
entwined
winding back the day
til resurrection writhes within us
in moonlight
marooned
flotsam and jetsam
jet-streams of Whitby
your Sargasso arms
holding me fast
so sweet at first
the teeth invade
wanting to yield to you
sugar on my tongue
seed on my breast
tears embroider
my cheeks and lips
mascara lace relief
senses distorted
no don't spit me out
swallow
a slop house
that is our love
a slop house
where pigs drop their waste
onto us
a place to prick our boils
and blow our noses
a place to wipe your saliva
from my neck and hair
perhaps love is running down
your legs
or sticking to the sheets
was mine less than yours
a minute maybe
no longer
emotional indiscretion
an hour maybe
no longer
you weren't there
I looked out
besmirched green-dappled
noticed the billboard feelings
of the man across the aisle
eyes are guns
in sight within range
you say execute me now
his hand on your leg
uncovering a breast
and some memories
innocence
once your only reward
now sensitivity shines
like a medal
necessity mistaken for trust
thoughts misused
actions bungled
you used to make love
now you make mistakes
how many steps does it take
no give me an answer
is it one
hovering before settling
or is it two
like the logic of addition
or is it three
four or five
is it that many or this many
tell me
how many steps does it take
to leave forever
just how many
5.
lovembers
desiresidues
each sound
disturbance
chord
syllable
vibration
each laugh and curse
nestle in my mind
love like gin
always there
traces in letters
conversations
acquaintances
harping on
with the door ajar
6.
we laughed in bed, didn't we
we met in a cafe, didn't we
you loved me, didn't you
didn't you
didn't
you
About the Creator
Christopher Francis
I began writing as a child, continued as an adult and worked briefly as a professional. Literature and music were and are my passions. Then life got in the way. Now, at 66 they have returned and I am giving them my full attention. Ta da.
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