Masked identify

It took a while
a long while
to realize I needed to find it
so I searched
in the depth of everything I could have been, I searched
in the void of everything I can be, I searched
to find myself
where I failed to look, there I was
in the muds of today, there I hopped over
covered fully in today's filth and dirt
I lost my identity


I lost my identity
To life's battles
There, it was choked and strangled
To ease my passage into tomorrow
I wore a mask
For a while, a mask was all it was
But, for because today is endless
I'm the mask now
My identity is now a mask to what I am now
It is how I lost it, hiding.
It is me, I choked and strangled it

Life did it
life sent its soldiers matching through my abode
They tore down my walls
Invaded my nakedness
And brought my shame before me
There, I could not be me
It was there the hiding began
Life has been my enemy
It has ridiculed me in all my glory
And successfully brought me to naught
Yes life did it