Masked identify

It took a while a long while to realize I needed to find it so I searched in the depth of everything I could have been, I searched in the void of everything I can be, I searched to find myself where I failed to look, there I was in the muds of today, there I hopped over covered fully in today's filth and dirt I lost my identity I lost my identity To life's battles There, it was choked and strangled To ease my passage into tomorrow I wore a mask For a while, a mask was all it was But, for because today is endless I'm the mask now My identity is now a mask to what I am now It is how I lost it, hiding. It is me, I choked and strangled it Life did it life sent its soldiers matching through my abode They tore down my walls Invaded my nakedness And brought my shame before me There, I could not be me It was there the hiding began Life has been my enemy It has ridiculed me in all my glory And successfully brought me to naught Yes life did it