LOVE

I didn't think he’d actually leave.

But i’m glad that he did.

Because he suffocated all my dreams.

Drowned my desires in his tears.

Washed away the person I was.

Asking for help was absolutely futile.

They laughed when I told them.

That’s when I realized the truth.

They would always laugh at me.

“Hah! You? I don't think so.”

I cry these words to him:

“You never even cared about us.

You never even cared about me!

I can’t tell anyone what happened.

And you won’t tell anyone either.”

Thrown into a new world alone...

Suddenly I was by myself again.

Somehow books became my only friend.

I needed to re-boot my heart.

Because I was one step away.

I had happiness in my fingers.

Just a stretch, a string away.

You ask about all my scars.

They litter my body and soul.

I love everyone but myself, see?

Every word left unsaid is written.

I’ve written a few novels myself.

I doubt anyone would read them.

But i don’t care about that.

For these words heal me, whole.

And soon I have a fire.

Because these words were my own.

And I owned every damn word.

And I held my head high.

When they laughed I held higher.

Because I knew my one truth:

Hot coals reside in our hearts.

Fire burns in all of us.

Some just burn hotter than others.