Take me to a place
Where I can be free
Free to embody my soul
The deepest of pains
The hardest of tragedies
A place where it is safe to surrender
Into the bliss
Into eternity
Because I am breaking
Every single day I am breaking
I want to cry
But I don't think there is anything left
I am exhausted and afraid
Afraid of my own mortality
Afraid of never being enough
I wonder what it would be like
To not care so much
To just give up and surrender
Because a part of me does
Maybe that's what I need to do
But it doesn't feel safe
My nervous system doesn't feel safe in the surrender
Because I have had to live on high alert
Hyper awareness my entire life
Always aware of my surroundings
Because if I let down my guard just a little bit
I am open to attack
Open to being used and abused
But damn do I want to let go
I want to surrender into the unknown
Be embraced by a man
So strong and so grounded
That it is safe for me to leave my feet
To leave the ground
A safety that only one man can provide
Because God crafted him perfectly for me
To embody my wholeness
My sweetness
To embody every broken piece of me
And watch me heal and overcome it all
With such loving eyes
A powerful gaze that can only be felt
That can never be put into words
But a gaze that I would spend a lifetime embracing
I want the realness
The rawness
I want to be seen
To be heard
To step into my fullest expression
My boldest expression
I want to be catered to and adored
The way no woman has ever known
To be guided and protected
A man who knows his worth and his values
And will not compromise
A man who wants to give me his all
Because he is so full of life himself
A man that is written in storybooks and fables
A love story that many people dream of
But few ever embrace
I want a love that isn't afraid of the darkness
That is willing to go into the deepest and darkest shadows of my soul
And hold all my pain with loving eyes
With so much strength, so much courage
That I don't fear the darkness as much
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