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It feels like I am running out of time
like I am desperate for human connection
because I have been deprived of any real intimacy
my family didn't show emotion
most of my friends come and go
and I have never felt truly desired by anyone
I don't know what a romantic relationship really feels like
I can only wonder
so maybe that is why I am trying to love deeper now
because I finally see my family as flawed humans who also struggle
I want the friends I make now to last a lifetime
is it really so bad I want to spend time with them
and maybe that explains why this crush feels different
I have opened my heart to love
and something inside me is pulling my heart towards yours
I want to tell you
to talk to you about everything
to see you more
to do the little day-to-day things with you
to know what true intimacy feels like
and I only want it with you
I wish I could tell you now
just to get it out in the open
but somehow make it clear that I have no expectation of when you will feel it back
because it is you that makes me happy
even if we only ever call ourselves friends
I will love you
love is love
we get to be the ones who define what it looks like
About the Creator
Hufflecup
I want nothing more than to dedicate my life to writing, so I figured I would start here to test the waters. I will be submitting stories to as many communities as possible.
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