Longing to feel the flame..
To become lost in the warmth
And distracted by the pain
May it burn away any prior stains
Take my heart by the reins
Grip my soul and teach me to be tame
Help me escape the disdain
May it open up like a piece of fruit sliced in two
Showing me things beneath its surface that make everything seem new
May it awaken my senses and grant me new pleasures before I bid adieu
May it beckon me into soft submission and make my new found vulnerability feel long overdue
It can wrench out my heart and tear it apart
In fact I'm sure it will end this way from the start
For the longest I've kept away and subdued
Thinking that I was being smart
Like a zombie dead and numb
I realize now I was just being dumb
For life had lost its fun
And now there's no where to run
Longing to find the warmth of the sun
To feel bated breath lost to anticipation
I've run out of patience
But worst I've run out motivation
Stagnant like a drying ink blot on a page
At the beginning I was consumed by rage
But at this stage
I'd just be content to be stricken from the page
A release from this barren cage
So i call out for something to usher in a new phase
Anything that can save me from my doomed state
I call out for a guide or a sign
As I sit here and scrape the plate
Of what was one the plan of my design
And now it seems I've lost everything divine
Every day feels like a waste of time
My face is blank but inside I'm crying
Wishing I was dying
I pretend to be ok for those who are spying
But inside I'm dead
Longing to feel
Down on bended knee
I make my plea
Longing for a flame
Something that strikes like a needle to the vein
I don't care if it brings pleasure or pain
As long as I'm drawn to the flame
I'll reach out toward its elegant dance
And take my chance
Caress and withstand the heat
To feel is what I seek
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