Listening to Your Sound

I love listening to you talk

Telling me your thoughts

Going on without a stop or pause

I love hearing the joy your in voice whenever you tell me things

Eyes wide open

I sit with no one around, dreaming to your sound

The spark in your voice ignites my heart

But at the same time rips it out

Because before I know it , it's my turn to speak

I wake up and weight of my body crushes me

Like a carcass I can't escape

The only thing that moves are my eyes

Searching within

Through many thoughts, but I don't know what any of them are

I wonder why I can't think

I wonder why I can't speak

Where are my feelings?

Why don't I feel anything?

Why is this happening?

Why now is it coming back to me?

I try to speak but I don't like the way I sound

I'm sorry I'm letting you down.

I don't mean to disappoint you.

I can hear the spark in your voice die down when you tell me you have to go

And for once I know what my thoughts are

They're saying

Wait

No

Stay

I don't want this to end

But I know that I'm not worth staying

Goodbye I say

I love you

My thoughts say.