Limbo

Do you ever find yourself writing about honest things but not sharing them because they aren't also happy things?

So you end up writing something a little less honest and a little more happy instead?

Because people like to read happy things don't they?

But today I am going to be honest.

Instead of bits and pieces I'm going to share it all.

The good, the bad, and the ugly.

I am now home.

I've found that a life here for me is pretty much nonexistent.

My life is in Idaho and North Carolina and Colorado, it's somewhere in Kansas and Nevada and Utah and Logandale, Nevada.

And I miss my life very much right now.

And it's hard.

It's hard to sit inside all day and miss your life.

There's plenty I could be doing but I just cant get myself to do it.

Because like I mentioned, my life is missing.

I feel like I'm dancing around it all sometimes.

I just don't want to mess up, I don't want to ruin anything.

I'm clinging to, in a few months it will all be over.

And I realize that to everything there is a season.

And I understand that nothing lasts forever.

Sometimes life is just plain boring.

And sometimes life just stretches you way too far.

So here's to hoping my sanity remains intact as I bounce around in limbo.