There was a spark I'd never felt before
and I don't believe it's entirely gone
I still feel it sometimes when we're together
so it's hard not to try to hold on
The tighter I tried to cling to you
the further I'd end up pushing you away
Were the days I was up there with you
just like any other day?
We clicked like I'd never clicked before
I thought we were such a good fit
How do I not take it personally?
My confidence took such a big hit
It may be one of the most difficult
realities that I've ever faced
That I was so easily forgotten
so easily replaced
Even when I'm angry at you
I want the best for you, want you to be happy
But I obviously can't do that
I can't satisfy you, and I can't make you want me
I loved those days
when you'd come home to me
I'd feed you dinner and rub your back
we'd talk and laugh and watch tv
Whether we were out exploring the town,
making love, or lazy days watching a movie
I cherished it, looked forward to the next time,
it truly mattered to me
We'd talk about plans for the future
that will never come true
Did those moments we shared
really mean nothing to you?
My eyes well up when I think
that you'll never again kiss me
But it hurts so much more knowing
that you don't even miss me
(Why don't you miss me?)
It's hard thinking of not having you in my life
and this season coming to an end
You can't be bothered with me
but I always considered you a friend
The thought of never seeing you again
just keeps troubling my mind
So many firsts for me with you
it's painful knowing that it was the last time
I know I have to let go
but it hurts more than I can describe
The tightness in my chest, the knots in my stomach,
the tears in my eyes
You're hurting me so bad
and you don't even seem to know
But the hardest part of moving on
is accepting that you moved on years ago
I'll never get the apology I deserve
or the appreciation that I should
I can stop waiting on the realization
that you're losing something good
You may never acknowledge
you took me for granted or treated me bad
I need to accept I'll never get the answers I'm looking for
or the closure I wish I had
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