letter to myself

I don’t blame you for all the pain, i dont blame you for what i have become. You were just a child trying to make it in a cold cruel world. Life was nothing like Disney said it would be. But you did the best you could and I am so proud of you. I know you need to hear those words so many times before, but no one ever said them to you. All the nights you spent alone in the dark crying i am sorry i couldnt be there for you . i can’t fix the past. I just wish you could know nothing is your fault , you didnt fuck up, you arent hopless. And please if anything know you are not a mistake. I will let your voice be heard , i'll let all the pain and fear be known . you always saw the light , you had such high hopes till they stole them away and your anger is vaildated They were supposed to protect you , they never should have put so much on you. You won’t be able to trust anyone for years, then one day you will meet your twin flame. All the hope you lost comes back, the only person that has ever looked out for you wanting nothing in return , he only wanted to see you safe and happy which he will make you so happy. You will remember him long after he’s gone. Losing him makes it so hard to breathe , you can’t even cry . i’m not going to say it gets easier because it doesnt you still miss him every second but it does get easier to breathe. The weight lifts alittle. You will close yourself off again thinking you were never meant to be happy. You’ll say you will never find anyone else like that . and you won't, but you will find someone to trust and talk to. It is his job but it is nice to say some of the things out aloud. I am not going to say he fixes everything but he does make it better. He'll bring out things you wish he didnt, you’ll remember things you lied to yourself about to forget. But he hears you.so dont give up just yet .