Letter my mommy in heaven

I remember saying our daily prayer 🙏🏾 every night,

And you kissed me goodnight.💋

I still say it every night,just right.

Years went by and you left this earth,

No tears came down but I knew your worth.

I wish I could see you ,

but the state said that wouldn’t do.

I never got to say mommy for anything all .

That’s when my tears began to fall.🥺

When I started my satans waterfall you were still alive.

But the state said you’d be a be like swarming dangerous beehive .

So many birthdays I had without you.

My days are left feeling blue.

I wish I’ve gotten to know you well,

Maybe I wouldn’t have a life full of dwell.

For many years I did everything I could .

But instead others put me down or say I’ll be like you if I would.

I never got the chance to talk about boys or learning about my body .

I had a miscarriage at 9 but I never told nobody .

You weren’t there to help me pick out my prom dress.

For a while I fell depressed .

It would’ve been kinda cool.

And pick my graduation outfit as well that would’ve been cool.

I never got to spend a Mother’s Day or any holiday .

Why did God have to take you away 😭

I remember when I tried to go to your grave at last.

But I didn’t want to just look at stone and grass .😭

You will never see me or attend my wedding.

Or meet my kids,my heart is shedding .

I can hear now as I try on a dress”I’d make a beautiful bride.

While I wear a smile a lot of sadness will be inside.

You won’t be able to be a grandmother.

Because I can’t replace you with another .

You wouldn’t be able to see my kid.

Knowing that gives my heart a skid .

I could reminisce all the laughs we could’ve had.

And we you’d talk to me when I didn’t have my dad .

Mommy I’m really missing you.

Dear mommy this is my letter for you