Learning to Let Go
Fear will not control me anymore
Fear coils around me
Like a rope with a mind of its own
Tightening with ruthless abandon
Cutting through flesh down to the bone
My heart pounds in my chest
My stomach jumps to my throat
Sweat drips down the back of my neck
Attempting to loosen the rope
But I’m coiled too tight
My eyesight’s gone dark
This fear is burying me alive
Filling up all my empty parts
I twist and I struggle
But the rope tightens more
I grit my teeth and lift my head
Fire in my eyes as I wage war
But the more I fight
The less grip I have on myself
I’m losing hold on reality
At death’s alter I knelt
I lower my head in shame
And release my heart of its burdens
After all, at the end of this battle
Nothing more can be worsened
And when I let go
The strangest thing happens
The fear slinks away
And the rope slackens
In my weakness I found strength
In my hopeless hour, I found answers
All this time, the fight destroyed me
It turns out that I was the cancer
The fear was just trying to protect me
I needed to accept I must let go
To welcome it in
And allow myself to grow
Understanding is the key to freedom
The more I fought the worse it got
Until I couldn’t breathe
Through all the damage it had wrought
But in the end
I bared my soul
I let fear run its course
And released control
And through that, I learned a lot
I let the waves come and go
And the winds pass
As I waited out the snow
I let the rains fall over me
And did not shy from their cold
After all, isn’t it always the fear
That teaches us how to be bold?
Fighting was not the answer
Acceptance was key
Understanding what went on in my head
Was how I learned to be free
About the Creator
L. J. Knight
I'm the girl who writes poetry in coffee shops, who walks the halls with a book under her nose, lost in her thoughts. I'm the girl with the quiet voice and the smart eyes, the one who dreams for the moon and hopes to land among stars.
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