Kinds of Fear

if you stare blankly into the sky for a minute, you may feel a bit dizzy. if you stay put to the ground and close your eyes, you may start letting go, little by little, at your own pace, you start becoming who you want to be.

i used to be afraid of feeling too much, or maybe nothing at all. i used to count every step i took on my way home, and i used to avoid staring into moments. you see, i used to be so afraid of what could be, so i stoped.

i believe in the personification of fear, all of my monsters have familiar faces and are two feet tall. they laugh too loud and they're green eyes shine at night.

i am still afraid of them, i just decided to name each one of them.

there's the tinniest of them all, my fear of cutting my hair way too short, i get along with it now, even tho it makes my face look younger.

i also talk from now to then with the heaviest, my fear of facing responsibilities, i now enjoy having a rent to pay (not really but we bare each other).

my fear of holding to tight, is the most present.

there are other kinds of fears, that ones that keep you awake at night, like the one i might never be able of having kids.

but i still get up every morning, and make the best out of my day.