Junes Solar Return
Under all that icing there is always cake.
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The Moon shines no light on my 27th year on the 27th day
It’s the day after the 26th and no longer a parade
In the city that never sleeps my eyes burn as I cry
On the day of my birth, I ruminate on the last moments before we die
My dream blurred eyes opened on what was supposed to be a new day
Yet my mouth remained closed as my brain ran through all I wouldn’t say
Too Fat
Too loud
Too much to be loved
I daydream about who I truly am and what I wish to become
I pray to my ancestors to support and guide me so that I don’t succumb
No earthly mentors, guardians or parents to care for my needs
I always hold gratitude for the family created by trial watered seeds
Still, there’s the ache in what feels like my forever healing heart
For that family is anchored away and miles and miles apart
Brown eyes
Brown skin
Brown curls locked down
I look far into the future convinced it will simmer the anxiety of right now
I play pretend and walk straight as my back continues to bow
Heavy hands of sadness push sporadically against my chest
I wake again and again gasping searching crying for breath
I beg to be held and seen and protected as I walk through my soul chosen life
Eyes closed as I watch reruns of hope filled daydreams devoid of strife
Not light enough
Not straight enough
Not obedient enough for the users
I’m here through all the dark thoughts and heart ache and anxiety for the future
I’m here bearing witness to the brutality of All my people by our collective abuser
I’m here holding up my spirit as my proud pride is stomped back into reality
I’m here pouring cement to bury the fear of becoming another casualty
I’m here wondering where to give birth on an earth where darkness loves to hover
I am a Black first-gen plus-size Queer when the parade is over
So beautiful and bright
So loving and caring
So creative and Gay
It’s the New Moon on my 27th year on the 27th day
Yesterday was June 26th, the day of the Pride Parade
In the city that never sleeps I wipe my eyes dry
On the day of my birth I feel blessed to be alive
I sit excitedly by myself in front of my freshly baked cake
My mouth opens wide as I sing and blow out candles to the wishes I make
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This was beautifully written, I celebrated my 27th year as well and line for line this was very relatable.