Journeying/Journalling

I CARRY THE BABY BORN ON THIS DAY AND TAKING IN THE JOY AS I GAZE IN HER EYES

FILLED WITH OPTIMISM WITHOUT A CARE FOR THE UNKNOWN

BROWN EYES SWEET AS SUGAR

SMILE AS WIDE AS A SUNFLOWER

SOON TO BE SHADED BUT STILL HAD HOPE THAT THOSE PEOPLE WERE PLAYING JOKES

LOSING HER SELF WHEN SHE SWALLOWED THOSE PILLS CAUSE NO CARED BOUT HER BOTTLED UP TEARS

I HOLD HER HAND TODAY TO TELL HER IT’S BETTER THAN OK

CAUSE ONCE YOU SEE WHO YOU ARE

THIS JOURNEY YOU WILL FULLY EMBRACE

THIS IS OURS PATH AND DARKNESS IS BEAUTIFUL

WHEN YOU SEE IT CLEARS AWAY YOUR DOUBTS

KNOW THAT YOU HAVE HELP

I WON’T LET GO

HOLD MY HAND TIGHTLY AS I GUIDE YOU PASS THE MEMORIES

I CARRY THE BABY BORN ON THIS DAY

ALLOW MY EXPERIENCES TO UPLIFT YOU AS WE WALK THROUGH YOUR PREVIEWS

WE WILL START WITH A FRIENEMY WHO GOT YOU TROUBLE

WORDS OF ADVICE HER STINGING NATURE ARE THE LESSONS THAT

TEACH YOU THE FOUNDATION OF TRUE FRIENDSHIP

FRIENDS TO SHARE YOUR SMILES AND TRIALS

THEY’LL JOIN THE TROUBLES AND NOT LEAVE YOU DANGLING

OR THEY’LL GUIDE YOU IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION

YOU’LL FEEL THESE FRIENDSHIPS HELP BUILD YOUR

INNER COMPASS

WE WALK NEXT SEE YOUR FIRST LOVE WHOM YOU

YOUR HEART SO QUICKLY NEGLECTING HIS QUICK SAND RIGHT BENEATH YOU

I CARRY THE BABY BORN ON THIS DAY

HE IS EVERYTHING YOU’VE RISKED EVERYTHING FOR

WITHDRAWAL FROM HIM STRANGLED YOUR AIR SOUL MIND AND BODY

HIS KISSES WERE THE SWEETEST OF SAPS YOU WILLINGLY DO WHATEVER

JUST TO BE THE SPECIAL GIRL IN HIS LIFE HOPING TO 180 HIS LIFE

YOU ASSUMED YOU WERE HIS MUSE FOR BETTER BUT HIS ROADS WERE DIFFERENT

JADED ABUSED LOTS THAT POSSESSED GRASS WITH TARNISHED PATCHES

OFF AND ON LIKE FLICKERING LIGHTS NO ONE ELSE COULD DO IT RIGHT

DESPITE THE FIGHTS AND ARGUMENTS WITH MOM

HE STILL WAS THE CHOSEN ONE EVEN WHEN HE COULDN’T SAVE YOU

HIS ADVICE TO LISTEN TO YOUR MOM FAIL OF DEAF EARS FOR YEARS

NEEDING HIS LOVE YOU REBELLED AGAINST WARNINGS

YOU WILL KNOW THAT HE WILL COME TO BE A LESSON

YOU MUST LEARN WHEN TO LET GO THAT BLOODY ROPE

FOR SOMETIME CAUSE THOSE BURNS NEED HEALING

I CARRY THE BABY BORN ON THIS DAY

HE’LL BE BACK FOR YOU TO MEND AND FILL THOSE HOLES THAT

FOR YOU BOTH TO ASCEND

LETS VENTURE OFF THIS PATH AND GO TO VISIT ANOTHER SHADOWY PLACE

A LOCATION WHERE THE LIGHTS ARE BRIGHT DIM AND SLIM

THIS PATH HAS A FORK OF ITS OWN

IT HAS DO WITH WHAT YOU ASSUME IS MEANT FOR YOU

DESIRES OF TRAVEL AND MONEY FOR SCHOOL

THE MILITARY WAS THE GLISTENING GATES

BUT DEEP DOWN IT WAS ALSO AN ESCAPE

ESCAPE FROM HOME TO BE GROWN AND LOVE THE MAN THAT YOUR FAMILY DISOWNED

IT BECAME MORE ABOUT HIM WHEN YOU DIDN’T GET HIS PEN

NO BLACK OR BLUE INK HAND WRITTEN LETTERS

THE ENVELOPES MOMMA SENDS START TO NOT MATTER

SUDDENLY

NEXT IS A WINDOW WHEN YOU ARE RELEASED FROM TRAINING

I CARRY THE BABY BORN ON THIS DAY

YOU APPEALED THE CASE BUT YOU STILL WAS LET GO

BROKEN HEART PIECES YOU WILL REFUSE TO EXPOSE CAUSE YOUR MOMMA

KEPT CHANTING YOU’RE STUPID YOU NEVER FINISH ANYTHING

HEED MY WARNING PLEASE MY DEAR

DROWN OUT THE NOISE OF THE IGNORANT DROWN OUT THE NOISE

OF THOSE WHO DON’T HAVE YOUR COURAGE

TO DO WHAT YOU’VE DONE

THEIR GOALS NEVER FLICKED A FLAME

NEVER MAKE LITTLE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE

MANY WINDOWS I NEED YOU TO VIEW

BUT WE WON’T TILL DUE TIME AS I AM RIGHT THERE WITH YOU