It's All a Big Jerk

I used to believe in things; God, spirituality, magic etc.

It was all so captivating in the beginning

Enchanted and mesmerized I was,

Lighting candles, reciting prayers and making affirmations

I had drank the kool aid and it tasted like holy blood

I remember the day like it was yesterday

I had primed myself for the blessing, the enlightenment

I got down on my knees, raised my hands

Grabbed firmly onto the angels and spirits as they prepared to anoint me

Anoint me with their divine essence

I raised my head up high and opened my mouth to recite the incantation

I could feel the holy spirit getting stronger, I could see the light

Shining bright, blinding me as I eagerly embraced in ecstasy

Then at once the divine essence was released

As it shot forth with might all over my body

I was engulfed and covered with God’s blessing

I could hear cherubim singing and see angels flying

I felt the sensation of the divine all throughout my bones

I had made it! I had finally made it to enlightenment!

To salvation and dare I say…resurrection!

I opened my eyes

The angels were gone, the spirits nowhere in sight

I got up and grabbed a towel,

Dried my face and draped the towel over my body

Then I looked around

Emptiness.