The U.S. Surgeon General said recently that
the real epidemic is NOT the
Coronovirus pandemic
but the epidemic of loneliness.
I remember my Christmas dinner
from this previous year -
stir-fried rice with medium-well steak
a bottle of red sangria
and brussel sprouts -
and I took a photo to memorialize
my creation and the memory of
how lonely it felt.
On Lunar New Year 2021,
I, along with other Chicagoans,
were quarantined
by the impenetrable wall of
snow,
an avalanche for the soul.
Where is Life heading?
I often wonder -
a friend wrote that the meaning of Life
is searching for the meaning of Life -
is this really true?
I had this vision - a suave
for all the bullshit of the past two months,
the bullshit of the past four years, actually:
you in my bed,
caressing, holding
me.
Us in bed for the next 24 hours
quarantined by our Love and bliss and youthful innocence.
Except this is all a mirage,
as my fortune-teller Sage and Time whispered
in my naive ears.
So I'm left with nothing,
on this nondescript Sunday -
except for this lonely hotel room,
memory of a lonely Christmas dinner ,
accompanied by a single, red candle,
and the feeling of being caved in
by the snow,
by the harshness,
by your cruelty,
by your toxicity,
the innocence you drained from me.
Will another come along?
I don't know.
I can only hope that
this another will ferry me to
higher heights and to a greater clarity
than you
You are NOT clarity -
you blur my vision
until I think I can no longer see
until I think I am going to go crazy
by your cruelty and toxicity
There must be another,
Another,
Even if it's another version of this
Even if it's another version of this
About the Creator
Susan Lee
I graduated from Stanford University in 2002 with a BA in International Relations and a minor in Psychology and have a Masters in International Affairs from Georgetown University.
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