In Name Only

To the Ones that made me:

You put a roof over my head,

Lay clothes on my back.

Fed me rice, broth, and meat.

I wasn’t hungry for that.

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Affection was scant,

Encouragement nil.

All these years later,

I suffer it still.

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An unplanned arrival,

A nuisance, a bother.

You already had burdens,

Didn’t want another.

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Unwashed at school,

Raised by TV,

Deprived of connection,

Knew not how to be.

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Apathy and criticism

Were the most you could dole,

Crushing my spirit,

Wilting my soul.

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If I dared show my pride,

Feel pleased with my art,

You made sure to kill it

And tear it apart.

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I asked if you loved me;

You clearly explained:

We don’t love anyone,

Don’t ask again.

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Desperate for touch,

A child with no tether,

Unable to love,

Damaged forever.

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Every cell in my body

Vibrated with fear,

Transmuting to rage,

A dark souvenir.

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Urges to damage,

Hurt, and destroy,

A need to tear down

Those who feel joy.

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A freak has been made,

Too late to undo,

Misery stalks me.

It will come for you, too.

Signed, Your Monster