impasse

scheduled a conversation for something i dont even think is worth the confrontation

what i needed so badly to say

has already been said

i got everything out of my head and dusted off my chest

but i figure i owe you something

so when you said you felt the need to defend

what happened by last years end

i agreed to letting my energy expend once again

i wont beg for your time

i finally see you tried your very best

i wont beg you to try harder

now im ready to give it a rest

but the date is set

so im prepared to look you in your eye and confess

ive been harboring an all consuming love

which admittedly, fine it made me obsess

but now i can see, after that feeling has gone

that obsession landed us in two completely different places

it decayed my soul

and made me feel so childish and so old

all at once

with this revelation

im ready to let you go

i know its over before it had a chance to begin

i didnt feel heard

and its clear i will never be a priority

which is fine because when that happens

and it does so often

its nothing worth noting

but i wont be made out to feel crazy

for wanting to love you in the right ways

and no amount of my effort and desire can make this work

if its just not meant to work

and yes it hurts

it doesnt matter how much ive loved you

or how patient ive been with you

doing whats best for me

wont always feel the best

so now i can progress

and with it digress

i knew this time around was a test

delivered by the universe

as promised after a grueling growing process

and just like all the other times youve disappeared and come back

i didnt care to get a pass

but this time your purpose has been served

and the lessons ive learned

wont repeat again

because it seems we've reached an impasse

-g.m.t.