If I never had you

I wonder how my life would be if I decided to take abortion pills.

Would your father and I still be together, or would we separate?

I know my in-laws would call me the most heartless girl ever.

If I didn’t have you, my priority would just be school and bills.

If I decided to abort you, I would, without doubt, receive hate

from people who think are superior to me, but I would never

allow them to insult me. I would respond quickly and say

at least I don’t want to use a child to take care of me forever.

At least I prefer a genuine mother-daughter love, not something fake.

If I never had you, your father and I would argue; maybe he would stay

by my side, or maybe he would move on with someone else forever.