If I die tonight
Will you be there
I see beauty in dark things.
In the abstract sides of life.
Nights are my favorite times.
My creative juices flow in the depth
Of darkness.
The wild and wondrous words
Make their appearance.
Sometimes in laziness, I do not rise from my bed
To journal these thoughts.
And so, I lose them by morning light.
So, now, I endeavor to rise up, from my darkness
Now and always, to note my treasured gems.
Darkness holds many secrets.
I have many secrets to tell.
I kissed a boy.
He was not mine.
He was divine.
What?
She does not want him anymore.
She left him vulnerable, like me.
He was dark inside, sad,
Lonely, like me.
He started it. Not I.
There I sat, minding my business
When up he came behind my chair
Massaging my shoulders.
Stop. Go away, no thank you
I yelled.
He threw up his hands, smiled.
You seemed tense, he offered.
If I am, that is my business,
Go away. NO THANK YOU!
He went away, laughing.
Next day, he was back.
Standing there cheekily,
Extending his hands.
Ok, fine, go ahead, massage away.
I am tense, I said with a serious look
Upon my face.
Massage, ending abruptly by me.
GO AWAY. Scared him silly.
I did.
He cannot be mine. Yet!
He awakened feelings, feelings better
Left un-awakened.
Feelings unexpected and a little
Delightful.
A delightful, wickedly concocted conundrum
Better left unexplored.
Now, I see him across the room all day.
A secret smile upon his face.
I ignore him. At least I try.
That smile, imploring me to do
Wicked, dark things.
I love dark things.
We are wicked. Became dark.
Dark was bad. Dark is so good.
We were happy.
Then life ripped us apart.
I had to go. He was sad. I was mad.
We are in distance, still we converse
I feel like I died. So does he.
Where does it all leave us.
I wonder.
I ask the question.
If I die tonight, will you be there?
Please be there.
Don't leave me in the dark.
N.A.
About the Creator
Novel Allen
Every new day is a blank slate. Write something new.
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