I Won’t Believe It’s the End

You were such a major part of my life, my circle of friends,

Integrated in every aspect of my world and my day,

Always at the end of the phone for a quick chat, a catch up,

Or to give me advice and listen to anything I had to say.

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Than suddenly you were gone, poof — disappeared,

And with you went a large chunk of my heart,

It destroyed my equilibrium and almost destroyed me,

And I had to pick up those broken pieces and work out where to start.

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I didn’t think I could carry on living without you in my world,

But I have managed it to some degree, although not at all well,

I still reach for the phone with a smile of anticipation,

Only to remember I had to once more bade you farewell.

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I feel like I’ve lived your demise a thousand times over the last three years,

Reliving the heartbreaking agony over and over again,

You’ve no idea how dearly you are missed my old friend,

Or how much I hate living in this constant crippling pain.

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I knew you were a necessary part of my existence,

I never took you for granted but I also never dreamed

That you’d be taken so soon and so suddenly,

But you were aware or so it seemed.

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You quietly and without fanfare said your goodbye to me,

But you never let me in on the time or the place,

I wandered merrily along my pathway in this life,

Having no idea of the heartbreak I was about to face.

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I cry often for that special ingredient that is now missing from my world,

The tears wash away my heart’s pain for a tiny space of time,

Although that bloody vessel still slowly refills with the torment

Of loosing you my friend, too soon to lose you in your prime.

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Three years today, the day that left my heart shattered and scattered

Across the void of emptiness that you left behind,

Gone, although I promise you’ll never be forgotten,

As I have all of our glorious and loving memories to remind.

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So once more I’ll cry my goodbye to someone special,

My hero, my bestie, the most wonderful friend,

I’ll still talk to you and remember the good times,

As I don’t believe our friendship ever really end!

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