I Wish

I wish that I were different,

But in some ways stayed the same,

I wish I were more prepared to play a losing game,

I wish I could rewind time,

Or skip the parts that all seem bleak,

I wish I could find the treasure in places I do not seek,

I wish I could wake up one day and realize-

It's not wise-

To cut the ties-

Which made my life unique,

I wish I had the power to change the outcome from the start,

I wish I could communicate what lies within my heart,

I wish I knew exactly where it is that I intend to go,

Or from a birds eye view the path were clearer when I look down below,

But patiently,

So patiently,

The puzzle I arrange begins to form an image which in some ways looks quite strange,

The idea I had in mind does not seem to have appeared,

I wish I had never signed the contract for it's exactly what I feared,

Why is it someone cannot take time wasted and issue full refunds,

I wish I could admire the man I have become,

And somewhere in the distance I have determined in my head that the unknown is not promising but a detriment instead,

I wish I never felt an unidentifiable dread,

But if you were to ask me what I would wish for first,

I'd most likely answer with something pre-rehearsed,

So I'll tell you what I wish for that gives me strength to move ahead-

I wish for a tomorrow where I am capable of getting out of bed.