I wish it would Last.

I wish

You would come back

And say you didn't mean it

That it hasn't passed

And the love will last

I don't know how to live

Without my reason for being

I know it's not your responsibility

It's just

It's hard

It hurts

Having to be

Alone

I thought we could fight this life together

But I ended up being your burden

The weight of my love wasn't enough

To outweigh

How I was such a drain

I knew I was a baggage

So I tried to love as hard as I could

Even when the thought of you

Felt so painful

While

Fighting

Everyday

Against myself

I wonder

If someday I'll be able to stay

In someone's life

Without becoming a memory of distain.

I wonder

What it feels like to be wanted

What it's like to be someone's curiosity

To be remembered

To be missed

I wonder

What it feels like to be loved.

I'm sorry to those who have loved me

I could never feel it.