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I trusted him
After all these years I finally cracked back my ribs and exposed my heart to love him
I wanted him to know me
I was finally going to let him see me
But everything I wrote
Everything I wrote came true
Like how my grey turned to blue because you quickly took away my hues
Like when you forgot my calls and missed my messages, because you were “in you’re own world” broken up and blue
Maybe I’m naïve so eager to let my guard down that I couldn’t see
You were an demon in disguise a twisted design handcrafted by the devil to make me go blind
And I was blind wandering down a street that was so unknown to me
Stumbling and tripping over words gaining an obsession that wasn’t healthy
Wishing that I wasn’t just a joke while anxiety overwhelmed me
I just wanted to be loved, but I guess that made me a perfect candidate for you
A man so drenched in red and blue that you came to destroy my every mood
I wanted you
But like every other man you wanted the her you saw in me
Isn’t it a twisted thing?
Looking inside a girl for healing
But I guess you got what you wanted
I saw her on your page after my short social media break because you just had to flaunt her
You showed me that by and by, far and wide, men are all the same
And what I thought and feared was right
No one could ever love a thorn
Because they’re all too busy comparing her to a rose
Their rose
And who can come near those petals he placed on a pedestal?
Their drenched in fiery red and fuchsia hues that light up their world just like the moon
I’m monotone
Monotone compared to a rose
My white, green, and yellow are not deep enough for a burning desire and not bright enough to get you lost in the fire
But I’ll find him one day I guess
But congrats on winning her back again
One day I’ll forget it
Like how it felt when you’d tell me how your day was going,
When we’d ramble on about nothing,
How you’d tell me I was beautiful and how I’d pray to God begging him to stop my heart from its steady soar
Because the fall would hurt more the higher I rose
And I rose
And I fell
And you let me fall to the stone
I should have know, but I couldn’t have
You’d say every word I though of before it could escape my lips
Most desires in life we shared and I can be honest when I say I haven’t met a man like you anywhere
But I’m expendable I guess
A rebound before you claimed your princess
I hope she’s all you ever wanted and more and I hope you can both walk through that door
I’m broken right now, but soon I’ll be fine
I’ll retrace my steps and one day I’ll be at the starting line
Ready to jump, ready to trust, ready to love
Cuz right now I’m just really numb.
About the Creator
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Where words fail my poetry speaks…
and I’m really not good at speaking.
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