I Thought I Was Broken

I shouldn't even be here

I came too early

and my mom got scared

So I think it's pretty fucked up

My lungs suck and my muscles don't motherfucking work right

Because I was born on the wrong damn night

I didn't ask for this

But it's what I got

On the good days, I don't mind

But I'm a little anxious so those days are hard to find

I feel like I'm always breaking

Pain that shouldn't be there

Muscles always aching

My childhood was taken

An old man before my time

Never had a prime

Toxic masculinity told me not to cry about it

I'm still working through that

When you're a man repressing your emotions just becomes old hat

I shouldn't even be here

I'm kind of a miracle

I didn't think anything was wrong with me

Until my friends started to look concerned

I know my limitations

That confidence took work I'm proud of what I've done

but I hope this isn't my finish line

I have dreams that have yet to come true