You texted me late that night,
You,
on the way to getting drunk
on wine
and vodka,
desperately lonely,
angry at the world,
pure fear in your message:
'You'll never leave me,
right?'
No hesitation,
I replied,
'Yes,
I promise.'
I'm sorry,
my dear,
but I broke that promise.
Me,
with the trust issues
that give me fear
of each person I meet
Me,
who never uses the words
love
or
I promise
lightly
without complete and total
conviction
behind them.
I'm sorry,
my dear,
that promise was one I couldn't keep.
I'm sorry,
my dear,
that commitment was one I
regretted.
I'm sorry,
my dear,
I could not stay.
You were my world.
You were the one I turned to
when trouble arose.
You were the one I went to
when I was alone.
You were the one I searched for
in the crowd.
You stole away my freedom
without me realizing.
But I left.
Something had gone terribly wrong,
I felt it deep in my soul,
though I could not,
would not,
dare not
speak aloud what it was,
think the words,
mention the idea.
You stole away my freedom
and gave me
nothing
in return.
I'm sorry,
my dear,
I broke my promise.
But I had to think of me
once again.
I had to discover who I am
without you.
I could no longer put
you
ahead of me.
You,
who rarely asked how I was doing
and barely listened
when I replied.
You,
whose career was first
over everything,
even those who loved you.
You,
who never sacrificed
like I did.
I'm sorry,
my dear,
I had to remove
you
from my heart
and move on,
away from the
pain, stress, and fear
and towards
me
once again.
About the Creator
Davia Buchacher
I was raised in an ever-growing town in southwest Montana. My heart belongs to this town, Bozeman, my dog, Poppy, and the feeling of furiously writing in a G2 0.38 pen on paper, time flying by as I tell a story. Instagram is @freelikeasong
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