I'll Just Say Nothing
Because My Words Are Never Enough.
"I want you to come with me,"
Those were your words;
"I can't be with you until I sort out my difficulties"
These were my words,
"Won't you hold on for me?"
I begged.
"I'll hold on until we can be together," you said.
These words weren't enough.
I was pregnant with another man's child, you see,
Stuck in a trauma-bond,
Stuck in my mind,
Though I wanted to be with you.
"I'll still wait for you," you told me,
"How long for?" I asked,
"As long as it takes," You said.
Wasn't I a fool for believing you?
Yes, a fool for believing that you loved me
enough to stick around;
And, stand by me in my time of misery.
Yes, you told me that you would,
"Stick around,"
"As long as it takes," remember?
And now;
You come crawling back to me,
After thirty years of leaving me wandering
whether you cared at all;
Leaving me alone for all that time,
To struggle through the pain,
And walk through the heartbreak,
Watching my entire life crumble without you.
I walked into your shop,
Thirty years later;
"Hi?" you say with a smile,
You don't even remember my name,
Though you stare at me as if you do.
I remember you though,
With your bright eyes,
And your puppy dog smile;
I mean,
Come on,
How could I forget you
The man who left me,
The man who filled my head with false promises,
The man I truly fell in love with,
Who I thought would be committed enough to stay?
The man who broke my heart and never mended it.
We were standing there for a whole hour,
While I tried to take back my power;
"You remind me of a friend I lost many years ago,"
I tell you,
Followed by a hint;
"Do you like Pink Floyd and Black Sabbath?"
You tell me that you do,
Yet still you do not say my name.
You tell me something I already know,
"They are my favorite bands,"
"I know," I reply, smiling.
At that moment, you stop talking,
And out, I start walking;
In truthfulness, my heart was aching,
Yet, still, all I wanted to do was to get away from you.
All I could do at that moment was watch you stare at me
walking away,
So,
Next time I see you;
I'll just say nothing,
Because my words are never enough.
About the Creator
Carol Townend
Fiction, Horror, Sex, Love, Mental Health, Children's fiction and more. You'll find many stories in my profile. I don't believe in sticking with one Niche! I write, but I also read a lot too.
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Comments (3)
This was so sad 😭😭
Omgggg, he didn't even remember her name. So heartbreaking!
The topic is powerful. Loved your poem.