Solitary confinement, replaying the tape
Leaving myself no way to escape
One moment I’m living happily ever after
Next moment I’m replaying the same bad chapter
Years spent wandering in the wilderness
Betrayed by the very one I used to kiss
Battling crazy thoughts and unfiltered anger
Putting my own wellbeing in crazy danger
Then I switch up and get a new perspective
Rerouted to focus on the objective
There are times I wanna sing and dance
Other times I’m stuck in some trance
Reliving everything that pisses me off
If this is a ride, I want to get off
Insanity working its way in
I won’t go down that road again
I just want to drink and not feel
But that is how the darkness reveals
So, I go cold turkey even though it hurts
Get my grind on and focus on work
Bipolar anxiety laced with depression
Acting out in fits of aggression
What is my calling, what do I want?
Can someone please wave a magic wand?
I know it doesn’t work that way
Frustrated, it’s been a hell of a day
Thinking that others are winning
All the while my mind is spinning
Ripping the misery from my chest
Is the only way I can be my best
Somebody save me from myself
All of this is no good for my health
I have to shake addiction and shake this wrath
I won’t survive if I take that path
I understand that door had to be closed
I looked into it and I exposed
My healing heart brings me wisdom
Getting the past out of my system
I am finally headed in the right direction
Time for action, no more reflection
Finally doors are beginning to open
This is a testimony, I have spoken
About the Creator
Corene Torres
Specialize in sales training and coaching for management and agents. Poet, published a book (Where I Stood), podcaster & doing spoken word on YouTube (Tornado Torres). Dealer in NASA based green technology (Krypto Marketing on Facebook).
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