I hate you.
I detest the flutter in my chest
caused by boyish laughter,
loathe how your voice soothes
the tempest of tainted thoughts
lulling me back to peace of mind,
recoil at the overwhelming
comfort and acknowledgement
that spills from heart-shaped lips,
and abhor the rays of your smile
so contagious that I can’t help
but smile back…
Why must it be your hands
that pull me from drowning in
the darkest depths of myself?
I hate how you’re the reason my heart breaks
yet you are the only one able to fix it.
And what I hate most is how
you're there but aren't.
Through the lowest of lows
you were there yet in my highs
I look for you, to be reminded that
we cannot bask in the glow together.
I despise myself for growing dependent…
How I created this version of you built from
bits and pieces found in the little things,
but I do not know you in the way that I crave to.
You are captivated by the stars
yet I am enamored by you.
Is it wrong to want to be special
to you, like you are to me?
… okay,
so I love you,
but I’ll say it’s “hate”
because my heart can’t
handle the repercussions
of having faith in what I know
is nothing more than a fairytale.
About the Creator
A. Nguyen
A writer at heart who wants to share my works. I want to evoke emotion in people when they read my writing but I won't ever know if I can, if I don't put anything out into the world so this is my first step :)
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