I Hate/Miss You Dad...

The night you left us, my world fell apart

Your body lay still, but my mind raced and darted

I cried out to God, why'd you have to depart?

And the answer came back, you'd been dearly departed

You were always the life of the party, the center of fun

But behind the laughter, your demons had won

You'd fought them so hard, but in the end, they'd won out

Leaving us with nothing but sorrow and doubt

I remember the good times, the love that we shared

But now those memories are bittersweet, it's hard to bear

I wish you were here, to see how we've grown

But instead, we're left with an empty space, a heart made of stone

I try to forgive you, for the pain that you caused

But it's hard to forget, the hurt and the loss

I wish things were different, that you were still here

But instead, we're left with a memory, of the life that we shared

So now, I sit here, with tears in my eyes

And try to make sense of your life and your lies

I know you were broken, with your own demons to fight

And even though I hate your guts, I still miss you tonight.