I Can't Sleep

I can’t sleep.

It’s been so long since I’ve been able to sleep...

I awake every night for in the silence I can’t keep...

My mind busy with all that I can during the day...

As I drift off it is you that haunts me again.

I keep on the go and focused with all there is to do.

But in the still of the night I lay awake and see only you.

As I toss and I turn and doubt all that I see.

I am lost within the darkness of your memory.

Slowly as I slip away I am in a place where I feel happy again...

Where everything glows as I knew it to be.

Where I used to sleep every night...

With you wrapped within me.

As I awake and I reach for your tender hand.

Reality hits me and again I cannot understand.

How you vanished, I was banished so immediately.

How my faith is so broken in all that’s meant to be.

As my heart beats so fast I feel it in my throat.

I cannot shake all you said to me especially when you said “Don’t”...

“Don’t ever doubt how I feel, I promise I will never hurt you”...

It took me so long to believe but how I believed in you.

In this silence I lay still as the distance between us now.

And I know that eventually I will get through this somehow.

All the feelings that I have mixed with all that was make my soul weep.

How I pray for release and a peace when I can sleep.