I am Love
I grew up believing it was love but really its abuse
That binding pain is all I have known and I sadly mistook it for love
Now it’s time to break free of those chains of my past
To break free of you and move on
To good times and something better
Something I am worthy of, something I am deserving of
You taught me the wrong lesson
I’m here to break the endless cycles and patterns that no longer serve me
If you were here I would scream at you this is not love, or softly whisper this is not love
I wish more people understood what you gave me is not love
You taught me the wrong lesson
Entangled, enmeshed, bound by you and you made it all my fault
It’s not my fault, I was young, naïve and I believed you but
I know now this is not love
It is just a cycle I was born into and I have kept repeating it believing it was love
This is not love, it is abuse and pain and suffering and trauma
It is not love because I have found the key to what love really is and
I will find it before I die. I will find it before I lay down to rest
I know what love is now. It is shiny and bright and filled with sunshine
Love is cool and smooth and flows like the tides in the ocean
Love is the moon and the stars and comets in the night sky
Love is the earth, the grass, leaves on trees, someone’s laughter
Love is slow and steady and filled with smiles and joy
Love is simple and constant and it has no pretence
Love is easy and kind and often has no words
Love has flaws that can be worked through
Love is round and whole and ok on it’s own
Love is silent and lasting and it gives you ground
It does not take it away like the love I learnt
I am learning my own lesson on love and it fills me up
As I grasp it not wanting to break it like the wings of a butterfly
This is love, not what you taught me. You were not love, you were just pain
Pain I am ready to let go of because love is truth
You can choose love or hate and I will always choose love;
It is time, it is time for love. It is time for happiness, time for joy;
It is time for peace and calm, it is time to dance in the rain;
All clichés I know but clichés I need now because it is time for love.
So what is love? Love is what I need;
It is the softness of my dog’s breath and tongue as she gently licks my hand when I am sad.
It is misty rain on my face as I gently wipe it away;
Love is watching Tik Tok videos that make you laugh from the inside;
Love is sitting with a friend in silence and feeling right at home.
Love is other people who simply understand;
Love is gentle and soft and it knows no bounds;
It is not what you taught me, it is not what I have known;
It is not what I have known until now.
Now I know it – because the lesson is so very simple;
Yes so very, very, very simple;
I have found what love really is;
It was easy because in the end what I learnt
Is that LOVE is ME.
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