how to wait

1. Check to see if you replied even though I know you didn’t.

2. Repeat # 1.

3. Look in the mirror

4. Curse the tired eyes in it, always waiting.

5. Smear lip gloss on chapped lips.

6. Perfume. In case.

7. Maybe I should change? Also in case.

8. No I shouldn’t change.

9. Brush teeth. Ten times. Until my gums bleed.

10. Am I stupid for thinking you’ll ever reply.

11. Put on sweatpants. It’s getting late.

12. Repeat # 1. More than once.

13. Why do I do this to myself.

14. No, why do I let you do this to me.

15. Shove my phone somewhere I can’t reach.

16. Wake up with black streaks on my cheek.

17. Don’t cry. Again.

18. Cry anyway.

19. Who am I kidding?

20. I can’t do this anymore.

21. Do it anyway.

For Poppy’s challenge. Thank you for the inspiration.