your escape to california mid summer '2017
when you said you'd find the black roses just for me
and i couldnt wait to see
you used to be a honeybee
you sold me a dream
and i bought it
simple imagery
i still see your face in thoughts interrupted by static
its quite alright to hate me
i regret being so erratic
forced you to see things no one should ever see
as did you, the memories
we were both so young
both in survival mode
as i write this im listening to deftones
just two artists
walking through flames
two escapists
there was a time i grew to hate all the polaroid's we'd take
now they reside in a heart shaped box
i still feel like you're the closest i ever got
the inexhaustible feeling of wandering around lost -
was gone
took you like a drug
your flavor never left my tongue
its still the best i ever had
something so spiritual about the act
i still wonder if you mutter my name in your sleep
or wake yourself up laughing from something funny
i still wonder if you draw your nightmares
i still wonder if you grew out your hair
youre still so important to me, to who i was
im so sorry i drove to your house every night i got too drunk
in the moment
you were the only boy i wasnt really sure i loved
now i know that i did
all those nights in your room
all those silences screaming our incurable gloom
riding passenger seat listening to tool
two escapists
trying desperately to meet
by any means necessary
but you have been so mean
so vengeful
i get it
i was a mess
no direction
im sorry i put you through it
i understand you because i am the same exact way
we were just too alike to see eye to eye
i wish we could've got it right
i felt so safe in your presence
and you took that all away because of spite
but maybe that's why i unraveled so often
you dug into parts of my soul i was trained to just live with
why do i feel like when it all came to an end
i went blind again
i spent so much time memorizing all the details of your beautiful face
the way your eyes softened when we pull back from an embrace
i hope you know you are beautiful
and the tattoo
its still true
and i know it doesnt matter to you
-g.m.t.
About the Creator
g.m.t
bare bones,
here are rests the things ive wrote,
to purge, to mend whats broke.
read, or dont. <3
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