riding her story into the storm
an experienced veteran of a life designed
by the hands of a widow who purged her goodbyes
dodging whispers of the windows who watch her sleep
tossing and turning into the night that takes her deep
plundering,
plowing,
across dreams that dare to be detrimental
those that she may keep
……
enough that she seeks solitude in the closed door
teasing her with lock and key
that burns embers in her heart
awakening fuzzy memories faded over time
like an old photograph found behind vintage drawers
cast open by the might that she may remember the tattered face
that stare back at her weary eyes, blue twinkling at the grin
of the little girl standing proud in the corners of her grandmother's home
two hands heavy holding toads beside her heart
like a princess movie captured on ink
begging her innocence to kiss and unravel a man’s curse
with locks of white, whispy in the autumn air
a small feat for her rambunctious spirit
tho kisses them naught for a Prince she never believed she needed
the daughter of a hairdresser and an environmentalist
birthed into a household of pocket penny change
and late night hours turned booze filled saturday lake festivities
dancing across moonlit skies that tease and trick the families
into feeling free from burden long enough to take the sorrow away
and her, the small child of God, who lingered in their traumas
believed she was strong enough, whole enough,
to take their burdens heavy and place them on her tiny shoulders
for they were the generations of trial and error,
the humanness of lifetimes brought to her door and she welcomed them in
pledging before her Father that she held Hope in her arms
and Unconditional Love, a violet flame within her heart
and that she alone could hold their heavy hearts
palms out facing upwards to the sun
covered in soil after that playful morn catching toads
turning to God,
for her grandmother taught her how to sew
well enough that her Faith was firm
"I will sew together all the sins and pain of the world," she spoke
to the figure unseen by burdened eyes
though clear enough for a loving daughter
determined to make her Father proud
"I will transform these vices into a blanket of love and wrap its warmth around the whole world, so that they, too, will know your Love."
and her Father smiled, sun beaming down on his delightful daughter
who would walk towards an arduous life to understand the depths of dismay
to walk amongst the layover of the loneliest that lived
sit besides those who buried themselves, head in sand, needle in arm
four times rehabilitated in white washed walls
hungry to feel something, anything, to feel real -- to feel worthy
her own free will a spear moving forward plowing her way through
covering her in pink hair, fermented grapes that bought her a decade of denial
until one day she sat still enough, quiet enough, and felt her Father smile
as the sun lit up in the East side on that crisp October morning
a moment away from mundane tasks, sipping cinnamon coffee in a mason jar
across the universe buzzing in the background serving as a hymnal to her heart
pushing over her Pervian purse, she makes space for Him
for she is never and has never been alone
a journey traveled --trailing 31 years
mountainous monsters graveled in her vains
terrain matching that of Dante's mind
gasping ghouls and demonic doubts that she learned
were naught but a lack of love
For Hell was no match for a heart built by the hands of Mercy
for Grace surrounded her like oceans of emerald
salvaging her Salvation
breathing honesty, she let go
finding acceptance in the gesture that was a lifeboat
after years of learning her childhood regarded her as the scapegoat
for saying "Yes" to a helping hand was her greatest lesson
a child too stubborn to recognize she need not take the weight of her families burdens
that she need not crucify her soul to carry the world
that knowing Hell was her gift, but holding space for herself was her power
for when she sits long enough to be - just be -
she is with Him, she is Home -
and together they will pull filaments of forgotten families
fragments of faceted realities
shattered pieces of glass, mirroring truth,
ugly guttural truth
seven sins: symptoms of lack lustered love
lustful adornments cast outside the gates
swollen and still, paused in peril
wrathful that each mountain will not move when demanded
prideful toils perceived beauty rituals cast by righteous rewards
glamorized by glutenous deceit,
jousting in emotions of jade,
wishing, wanting, preying
on paths strayed
bellies full while an emptiness remains
in innocent eyes, the prize is not passion
but compassion
an empathetic hand held out to touch the foot of a daughter
who walked what she almost thought was a hollowed life
turned full, for her cup overfloweth
when sitting at the table of her Father
as together they sew those 7 patterns,
patchworked into perfection
a quilt of comfort
birthing the framework of Heaven
so that those who still may not be still enough
who may not yet feel worthy enough
may also know the warmth of Forgiveness
and understand without question, the true source of existence: Love.
About the Creator
Veronica
I am the moss silken on watered stones, rooted deep in rich soil. Earthen creature, I am the night sky -starry and strayed from the forgotten path of poets - I am, the chatter from the iron rails rattling as the train carries itself home.
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Impressive & inspirational!!! Left some love!!!