Hide & Seek
Hiders, Seekers, & Finders
Here I go
feeling like
I’m holding back
again
*
Feeling like
if I told you
how much you still mean to me
you’d put me back on
your broken shelf
*
I don’t give a fuck about my pride
but it hurts to be disregarded
by a person who said they cared
*
Feeling like
as comfortable as
I have always been with you
I have to hide what I truly feel
*
Because hide and seek
is your favorite game
but you don’t want to be found
*
I'm only speaking from my experience
because the person I see that you are
is the person I once was
*
You want to stay
in the safe zone
by the tree
Rather than be caught
by someone that is real
*
It’s safer to stay in the shadows
and never acknowledge
what you truly feel
*
It’s safer to stay stoic
instead of be vulnerable
*
Because love is a dangerous game
when there’s no rules
to how, who, why
when it comes
where it goes
*
And you’ve been hurt all before
Risking it again seems more scary
than cutting your loss
*
Now
I wish I could say the same
but I’m breaking at my seams
I’m fighting all the feelings
because there was no reciprocity
*
I’m sick of keeping the feelings corked
that are welling up inside of me
Blocking the flow
of my chakras energy
*
In the past
fighting my emotions
has only left my body aching
*
The emotion lost its motion
making my back go stiff
*
Why did I ever care
for someone
who acts so cold and distant?
*
Sometimes I’d like to have you back
even only as a friend
but I feel I have to hold back
because you seem to fear
unconditional love
more than death
of a dear friend
*
Your silence is deafening
Feeling like you don’t care I exist
*
I wish I didn’t care so much
so I didn’t have to pretend
that I’m not holding back
because the truth is that I am
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Sarah Jane
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