Here

I was standing right here. Right here.

When I offered you a listening ear.

And open arms. And an open mind.

And an open heart.

I was standing right here. Right here.

When I told you that no matter what time

I’d be there by your side, offering you all of me;

that I would always be on your team.

I was standing right here. Right here.

When you reached out and finally accepted what I was offering,

and things began to look up. And you were happy.

And the War. Had stopped. Raging.

And I was standing right here. Right here.

When you began to fall back, and hate yourself,

and life, and the lies began to eat you alive,

but I refused to give up on you.

I was standing right here. Right here.

The whole time, offering you a piece of mind,

and a hand to hold, when you wanted to let go

and let the dark waters drown you.

I was standing right here. Right here!

When you lied and said that you’d

“see me tomorrow,”

and then Chose. To break. My heart.

I was standing right here. Right here!

When I got the call that you were gone,

and the confusion, and chaos, and betrayal

came raging in; causing me to shut down.

And it was right here. Right here.

Where I fell to my knees, struggling to breathe,

to understand, to comprehend what was going on;

that you were really gone.

It was right here. Right here.

Where I lost you, where I mourned you,

where I contemplated the same course of action,

where my Life. Fell. Apart.

I was here! I was always here!

Seeing what you could be

and loving you for who you were,

but somewhere along the line, it stopped being enough for you;

but you were always enough for me!

And it was right here. Right here.

Where I finally let go of the pain,

and the sadness, and the madness, and the hate,

and began living again.

It was here. Right here.

Where I changed my name to yours

and decided that I would live for you;

that I would live the life you should have had.

It was Here. I was Here.

But now it’s time that I move.

But tell me, how am I supposed to move

when I still love you?