Hemingway Hijacked My Calligraphy
Poetry reading with audio
pens and swords and time heals all
but life isn't a sitcom that resolves in 24 and a half minutes
the blood in my ink coagulates on regurgitated
words that burned truth into the lies they spun out of denial
all the while looking for the spirits to calm the witch
or the devil that wants his due but what has he done but spit in my eye
words evaporate before hitting the page and I squeeze the bladder
that pours through the tip that was meant to show me inside out
it showers me in acid rain sprays that try to bleach me into position
but I cannot contort into anything but my lazy non-conformist ways
liquid courage, liquid treasure, liquid pleasure
liquid hangover afternoons that taste like I ate carcass as my last meal
there isn't enough alcohol to blind me to the reflection of flayed emotion
I leave in my wake at every sunrise curtain call
my murderous eyes paint time in lines that cackle and frowns that
carry too generous amounts of pain, disdain, and disappointment
verses turn fragmented lies in bad grammar and words that
pretend to be sentences with no structure
I dig the fountain pen through the paper of my eyes hoping this time
the words will stick and someone, somewhere will hear them scream
clawing through my cheeks bleeding lines in truth that looks like
bad stitches and a puke bucket by the bed
my tongue slices in rusty blades where tetanus would be a reprieve
from the truth I sling like ninja stars...unseen
I read Hemingway and hate it but it turns up in my broken thoughts and inability to escape broken perception
I read Bukowski and flip off the world in Fireball or Patron, yes,
tonight it is the Patron in chrome that soothes the soul if not quiet the mind
But if my pen bleeds invisible words and I forgot how write through all the typing, then how am I to say "screw you" in intelligible jibberish
farewell inkwell blues and hello black lines of misconstrued regret and angles that make me remember I forgot how to use a protractor
the light above the reading chair flickers on and the open bottle remains so
one shot to fifteen, but who's counting by yourself
Hand lettering my love in calligraphy on a heart requires to pass by
feelings in slow waves weighed down by a shot glass blurring fragments into truth.
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