Help Me

Can you hear me?

Hello? Hi? Hey?

Help me

I'm drowning. I tell you.

I can’t breathe. I’m gasping for air.

I push my lungs to scream louder

But those screams fall silent.

Help me.

You can hear me. I know it.

My mouth forms the words

Yet falls silent on deaf ears.

Help me.

Oh thank you! You heard me!

Please help. Please listen.

Ok? Yes? Tests? Ok.

Help me.

Poke. Prode. Lay still.

Help me.

Ok. Questions?

Does this X?

Does that Y?

Does it Z?

No. No. NO.

Help me.

You didn’t listen!

This isn’t what I asked of you!

Open your damn ears!

Help me.

Move on. Unavailable. Wait 6 months.

Oh finally. Another one.

Please listen.

Help me.

Scribble. Write. Erase. Scribble.

More questions. Still not listening.

My body hurts. The wounds have scarred.

I’ll reopen them later.

Help me.

My mind has gone blank.

I have no answers, no words

Winds whistle through empty heads.

Was this the right way?

They think there’s a better way.

Help me.

See you in a few weeks.

It’s not forever right?

It’s the way they say

I still feel that deaf ears lurk.

Help me.

I’m back! Did you miss me?

I love the decorations!

Wait, oh, it’s for them…

I’ll just go.

Help me.

Just put on a face

Just keep the pace

They don't think anything else anyway

Nod. Smile. Nod. Yes. Yes.

Good job playing today.

Help me.

I can’t play anymore, sorry

Plan. Prep. Write.

I’ve screamed and I've pleaded.

I’ve begged and I’ve bargained.

But not one listened.

Help me.

It’s too late. Write. Seal. Place.

I’ll miss the light. The warmth.

Even though I’ve felt so cold

For so long drowning.

So I’ll just help myself.

And it’ll be forever this time.