Heartbreak Dreams

You look so peaceful asleep next to me

your breathing in a beautiful pattern

of love and comfort.

My eyes burn from the light

of my computer as I type this confession.

Our days are limited.

I feel the pain in my chest

knowing I must leave you soon.

Thoughts race in my head

while yours is empty and carefree.

How will I do it?

How can I hurt you knowing you’ve given up

so much?

How will either of us deal with the pain of losing

our one and only?

I never imagined this day would come.

I gently take your hands in mine

a worried glint in your eye.

The words pass out of my mouth

like venomous daggers piercing your

heart.

Tears like rain from a thunderstorm

cascade onto the table.

The questions pour like spilled milk.

What have I done wrong?

Why don’t you want me?

Where will I go?

What will I do?

Emptiness consumes my own heart

as I empty yours as well.

Moments like this are not for the weak willed.

The pain of tearing someone apart with a few simple words

should not amuse anyone.

I was never strong enough.

I was never good enough.

I was lost in a fantasy of promises

and encouragement.

The roads have never been paved

in this journey.

The forgiveness I once sought

now lay burned in the stove.

A melody of screams and cries

could never be soothed with empty arguments.

A crash of thunder awakens me with a deafening eruption.

You lay turned towards me,

peaceful, and without any worries.

Another day, my love.

I cannot bear to lose the sight of you like this

tonight.