Healing.

If you want to heal, I cannot tell you that it will be easy; it will be one of the toughest things that you will ever go through.

I can tell you that there will be hard days.

There will be days when you feel like you’re not healing, and in my opinion, those are the hardest ones to get through.

These will be the days when you feel like you’re plateauing and stuck.

These will be the days when you sob all by yourself and there is nothing anyone can do or say to help you stop.

These will be the days when no one will wipe your tears away, so you’ll need to do it yourself.

These will be the days when you cry, pause, cry again, remember to breathe deeply, and just come up sputtering because crying and breathing simultaneously are too hard to do.

These will be the days when you ask yourself “why am I like this” and “what am I doing wrong.”

These will be the days you feel hopeless, when you just want to shut out the world and shut your mind off, just so you can find a reprieve from the thoughts.

Out of all of these days, I hope you never get the ones when you feel like not existing just because everything is too goddamn hard and you don’t know how you’ll make it through.