haiku august four

big storm coming in

heavy stuff coming later

i guess we will see

. . . [8/20/23]

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i do love this sound

but it can be scary too

supposed to be big

. . . [8/20/23]

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how much can this roof

and all the roofs out there take

let's get through this one

. . . [8/20/23]

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what it's like waiting

are you waiting or trying

or are you living

. . . [8/20/23]

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i can't imagine

what my end will really be

and he can't either

. . . [8/20/23]

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sort of int'resting

to imagine how we'll end

knowing we are wrong

. . . [8/20/23]

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there is this before

and there will be the after

and now is the now

. . . [8/20/23]

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i fly tomorrow

to see him and all of them

it's good no matter

. . . [8/20/23]

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i'm about to fly

we will all be together

we'll see what happens

. . . [8/21/23]

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what to really say

not much, you know, just be now

moment to moment

. . . [8/21/23]

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he seems to be fine

is that what he really is

would he like to go

. . . [8/21/23]

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enough wondering

when i get a chance i'll ask

will be good to talk

. . . [8/21/23]

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this is this time

every moment is this time

it is all you want

. . . [8/21/23]

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I've just landed now

so here i go to the next

we'll see what life brings

. . . [8/21/23]

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he seems pretty good

all things considered of course

it's nice to be here

. . . [8/23/23]

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so we sit and chat

hang out, plan for home-coming

this time he'll come home

. . . [8/23/23]

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he's tired a lot

he did some walking today

he does seem okay

. . . [8/23/23]

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at funeral home

soft music and some laughs though

he is still alive

. . . [8/23/23]

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she brought a black dress

'hadn't even thought of that

we all have our thoughts

. . . [8/26/23]

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we do what we do

you plan your way, i plan mine

all so very sweet

. . . [8/26/23]

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it all brings it home

as we plan with him the end

when'er that may be

. . . [8/26/23]

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so, at the airport

going to my home for now

that could be the last

. . . [8/26/23]

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but it might not be

this is new for all of us

so i guess we'll see

. . . [8/26/23]

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i can feel our love

even though not always great

this is just the love

. . . [8/26/23]

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it brings me to peace

we've done our work to be good

so we'll see what's next

. . . [8/26/23]

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dad is still alive. palliative care in place at home with some other home healthcare too. sunday of this week there was a big hurruican warning that was downgraded to a tropical storm. we'd all been planning and prepping best we could while we wondered how it really would be. then i saw messages from my family that my dad had been taken to the ER last night, early this morning. it was stunning. but also a call like that we'd all be expecting at some point. each of us a different call. some got the call to go help and did. some like me, phone was on "do not disturb" and no calls got through -- so i was behind. and also in a different state and time zone. because of the rains, though not as bad as we planned for, best to not fly out til tomorrow morning. but i was sure i wanted to no matter if he started to get better, as he did. i went, all 6 of us were there and it was very special. a lot of time just we siblings together which doesn't happen that much. we visited dad. and sat together while we let him rest. he was tired. very tired. slowly better and better. he has chronic conditions so can't quite heal. we'll see. we'll see. but he's home now. and every day is a new part of this. every day is. and he is still alive. now.