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Guilt and confussion

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By MitchellPublished 3 years ago 3 min read
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Guilt and confussion
Photo by Sydney Sims on Unsplash

After making love to someone she barely knew again,

Then she starts to think of him,

She doesnt know why she cant commit,

Because he is the one she is in love with,

Her heart aches from things she has done to betray him,

He doesnt know anything but the lies she has gave him,

He loves her to the moon and back,

Theres no doubt in her mind about that,

She tells him shes out with friends,

When really shes cheating on him again,

He hasnt done one thing wrong,

She knows in his arms is where she belongs,

She cant stay true she doesnt know why,

It makes her feel so bad inside,

One night she leaves again kisses him goodbye,

After telling him another lie,

Goes to the bar and meets a new guy,

But this time she diddnt give in,

The guilt was killing her within,

She decided to go home and tell him everything she had done,

Maybe he will understand forgive her and they can stay as one,

If he leaves it will break her heart,

Fear washes over her of them being broke apart,

The things shes done telling him is going to be hard,

When she pulls in the driveway to park,

She wipes her tears takes a deep breath,

Shes going to get all this hurt off her chest,

She walks in the door,

Sees a trail of cloths on the floor,

A womans moans she cant help but hear,

She bust back into tears,

She drops to her knees and covers her face,

She diddnt know how much more her heart could take,

Shes beat herself up for so long,

Because she thought she was the only one doing wrong,

Confussion covers her mind,

She blames herself for being gone all the time,

The moans stop she hears the bedroom door open and footsteps heading her way,

The sadness runs through her now she doesnt know what to say,

He stops dead in his tracks when he sees her,

She knows now he doesnt need her,

She stands her feet “i love you”is all she could say,

“Ive cheated too so we can fix this we’ll find a way”,

She ran to him and hugged him tight,

He whispers in her ear“I love you too i dont want to fight”,

He hugs her back kisses her forehead,

Forgetting all about the woman in their bed,

“Lets do it again thats was great”a womans voice yells out to him,

She knows that voice shes heard it time and time again,

Her heart dropped she started to shake,

Footsteps again coming their way,

She cant beleive her eyes from what she saw next,

She rubbed them once to double check,

“Mom what the heck”

She turned back to him as her mom ran to the back,

She never seen her mom naked before now she cant say that,

The sadness that ran through her body like the river,

She felt her whole body start to shiver,

Her blood ran cold as ice,

Thought to herself this aint right,

Shes done alot of wrong but not like this,

She diddnt know the men she slept with,

No connection to them at all,

No text no phone calls,

“How long has this been goin on” she ask him in a quiet voice,

She had to ask she diddnt have a choice,

He dropped his headand says rel low“The first day i met her”

She cried out loud “so almost as long as we been together”,

He starts to cry “im sorry baby”

She flips out starts goin crazy,

Punches him dead in his nose,

Slams his head in the wall as her anger grows,

Her mom comes out trying to pull her back,

She pushes her down she falls flat,

She storms out of the door,

Her husband and mom still on the floor,

She has never been this mad before,

But the rage she felt just couldnt ignore,

She grabbed the gas can from the back yard,

Thats also where she seen her moms car,

She poured the gas inside of it then on the top,

Her mom came out yelling”stop”,

That diddnt help,

Too late now she thought to herself,

The flames went high but she diddnt think this through,

When a car is set on fire what it can do,

She was standing close,

Then the car explodes,

She felt no pain only darkness nothing more,

Her rage had killed her now she has to answer to the lord,

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Mitchell

i work alot got a family of 5 jus scrape by but we do good on here to write poems i write them alot anyway so maybe this way other ppl can read them too

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