Directionless.
Effortless.
Full.
For me, yellow is sunlight on a bright afternoon.
Dancing across the sky.
Shimmering through the trees.
Winking between the clouds.
Golden.
Daring.
Afraid of nothing.
When did I learn to ask, “Is it safe?”
On the playground?
In the school yard?
In the classroom?
My favourite colour is yellow.
One day we played a game in class.
The teacher said, “Stand here if your favourite colour is yellow.”
I joyfully danced over.
Stood there.
Expectant.
Moments passed.
My heart raced. My hands sweat, my feet sweat. A lump grew in my throat.
My heart dropped.
No one came.
I stood there.
Completely still. Completely alone.
My mind was relentless.
A downward spiral swept in.
Does being me mean being alone? By myself? Forever?
Next time, I choose blue. Everyone’s favourite colour is blue.
For me, blue is water.
Spouting icy comments.
Shooting piercing glares.
Armouring my heart.
Leaving me completely alone.
Again.
One day I walk by the river and see sunlight dance across water.
I stand there.
Mesmerized.
Still.
I then remember.
I am not blue like water.
I am golden like sunlight.
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