I was indoctrinated into hatred before I could spell my name.
It soon became self-loathing I wore like clothing, it never left my soul.
So I grew silent, devastatingly quiet, just to fit in the mold.
I didn’t know I was gold.
I always accepted less than the best ‘cause I thought that’s what I deserved.
The pain was the worst, I had no self-worth, and that left me vulnerable.
Because I am different I thought I deserved it, so I never told.
I didn’t know I was gold.
I would incessantly pray every single day but nothing ever changed.
When starving couldn’t fix me I’d cry desperately, ‘God take me away’.
I couldn’t bare it, I cannot to explain it, I bought the lie I was sold.
I didn’t know I was gold.
I was indoctrinated into hatred before I could spell my name.
Only recently did I embrace identity and feel valuable.
I never would have surmised I would apostatize, but lo and behold.
I finally know I’m gold.
About the Creator
Elijah Marr
I am a recent Fine Arts graduate looking to find my voice. Thank you!
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